"You are not controlling the storm, and you are not lost in it. You are the storm." ~ Sam Harris, Free Will

The Swans have a new album out. It's intense. Listen.

The video, not necessarily the song.

"Hell isn't other people. Hell is yourself." ~ Ludwig Wittgenstein in response to Jean-Paul Sartre

"We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars." ~ Oscar Wilde

"The oldest and strongest emotion of mankind is fear, and the oldest and strongest kind of fear is fear of the unknown." ~ H.P. Lovecraft

The polycephalic creations of Russian scientist Vladimir Demikhov are the stuff of nightmares. Despair.

That Fall by Frederick Seidel

The body on the bed is made of china,
Shiny china vagina and pubic hair.
The glassy smoothness of a woman’s body!
I stand outside the open door and stare.

I watch the shark glide by . . . it comes and goes — 
Must constantly keep moving or it will drown.
The mouth slit in the formless fetal nose
Gives it that empty look — it looks unborn;

It comes into the room up to the bed
Just like a dog. The smell of burning leaves,
Rose bittersweetness rising from the red,
Is what I see. I must be twelve. That fall.

Michael Marshall Smith's Spares is a great piece of speculative fiction. Hardboiled, noir, cyber-punk, urban, street & high tech; it checks all the boxes. The newly discovered and mysterious inter-dimensional universe, called "The Gap", is an interesting combination of the oppressive psychological state that impregnates all of J. G. Ballard's "disaster trilogy" and the drug induced alternate reality of Jeff Noon's Vurt. An interesting construct. Worthy.

Mind and Heart by Charles Bukowski

unaccountably we are alone
forever alone
and it was meant to be
that way,
it was never meant
to be any other way–
and when the death struggle
begins
the last thing I wish to see
is
a ring of human faces
hovering over me–
better just my old friends,
the walls of my self,
let only them be there.
I have been alone but seldom
lonely.
I have satisfied my thirst
at the well
of my self
and that wine was good,
the best I ever had,
and tonight
sitting
staring into the dark
I now finally understand
the dark and the
light and everything
in between.
peace of mind and heart
arrives
when we accept what
is:
having been
born into this
strange life
we must accept
the wasted gamble of our
days
and take some satisfaction in
the pleasure of
leaving it all
behind.
cry not for me.
grieve not for me.
read
what I’ve written
then
forget it
all.
drink from the well
of your self
and begin
again.

This Is Just To Say by William Carlos Williams

I have eaten
the plums
that were in
the icebox

and which
you were probably
saving
for breakfast

Forgive me
they were delicious
so sweet
and so cold

See it large

Pieter Bruegel the Elder, The Triumph of Death

“No human relations are adequate to human desires.” ~ Charles Baudelaire

Watching Rian Johnson's The Brothers Bloom.

"Along with many of his contemporaries, Bangs concluded that if “authority” was not to be trusted—and clearly, it wasn’t—then whatever “authority” detested must be O.K., or probably great."